Sunday, May 23, 2010

Prayer

Anger. You got that in the last post. The thing I struggle with more than anything else is how to manager that anger? I know the potential anger has to do significant and long term damage. I have to have a relationship with him on some level, because we had three kids together, one of which is only three. We have a lot of years of raising kids together still ahead of us.

Most of all I don't want my children to carry the burden of my anger. It is my emotion. I own the emotion, I own the feeling. Its mine to work through. Its mine to process. How do you manager and process that anger in a way that is constructive, yet does the least amount of damage? I. don't. know.

What I do know is that yelling and screaming at him only provides a momentary release and never results in a positive outcome. I know that keeping it bottle up inside means that it comes out projected onto other people and situations that don't deserve that wrath. I know that I can't move forward until I move through the anger.

It's weighed heavily on my mind. Last week I was sitting in Relief Society soaking up the lesson on prayer. Toward the end of the lesson the teacher read a scripture that discussed praying for your enemies. Now I don't consider soon to be ex husband an enemy, but the idea is the same. To pray for, and about those that have offended you. Is this the magic pill to make the anger go away? I doubt it. But I do think it helps to soften the heart. I think it helps in allowing the anger to process. I think it helps in allowing the atonement to take hold and heal.

Its the first step.

11 comments:

Amigakitty said...

All I can say is Amen...and thank you for your honesty.

Sandy said...

Yes prayer is the answer.
I have felt so much hate and anger towards my husband at one time that I dropped to my knees and begged the Lord to take it away from me. To please let my heart be filled with His love and forgiveness for others. The Lord knows that this was not a choice you and I have made but we do have a choice in how we will react. We (husband and I) have chosen to stay together, it is not easy. But marriage never is. No matter how ideal all the circumstances might seem. The Lord is mindful of you and your children and him. You will be able to work through the anger and as I've said before, you will be a better woman for it. I would like to say trust me, I know. But I would rather say, Trust in the Lord. He loves you. He knows.
Sending you hugs. I'll be gone for a week, but you are in my prayers. Much love.

Anonymous said...

Where theres a will theres a way. ............................................................

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Anonymous said...

我們老得太快,卻聰明得太遲。..................................................

Anonymous said...

一個人的際遇在第一次總是最深刻的,有時候甚至會讓人的心變成永遠的絕緣。............................................................

Anonymous said...

良好的開端,已是成功的一半。.......................................................

Anonymous said...

看得見您的用心~~希望這裡愈來愈熱鬧哦~~............................................................

Anonymous said...

God helps those who help themselves...................................................

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